When I came to In The Gap I had no idea how homesick I would be. The first several weeks here were an emotional drain and I thought there was no way I was going to make it through the whole session. But God had different plans!
Just a few weeks into the session I was studying God’s Word, trying to get direction from Him to go home. But of course, I was just trying to get what I wanted, when really and truly I knew I was exactly where God wanted me to be. Later that morning my discipleship coach came to me and encouraged me to meditate on Matthew 12:30, which says: “And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength.” After that, whenever I felt downcast, like I couldn’t go on another day, God would remind me of that verse.
A few weeks later at church the pastor was speaking about end times, and how exciting it would be if we walked out the church doors and saw Jesus coming to take us home to heaven. In my heart I thought, “No, I don’t want Him to came back yet! I want to see my family first.” But then I realized how I had been loving my family and the things of this world more than I love Him. I saw how my heart attitude was affecting my opportunity to reach out to the children I was teaching in Oklahoma City.
I am so thankful for the opportunity to be here at In The Gap. I have learned so much and God has shown me His power many times through my weakness. I feel so blessed and so undeserving of His love. MaryEllen Walter